GINTAMA and all characters/ideas/concepts/places therein are not mine, although the writing certainly is.


Title: Going to bed early doesn’t help much.
Characters/Pairing(s): Gintoki
Rating: G
Summary: The things you think about when you're not supposed to be thinking.
Notes: The title is taken from the 31_days theme for January 2, 2007.



Going to bed early doesn’t help much.


They always come suddenly, right when he’s fooled into thinking that everything’s okay, that this peace of mind he’s experiencing just might become the norm rather than the exception: visions in the desolate reds, blacks and grays of an endless battlefield, the smell of gunpowder and rotting flesh, the sounds of screams. Sometimes, he’d catch a familiar face (Katsura sometimes, Sakamoto sometimes, Takasugi always). Sometimes, he’d dream of what things might have possibly been like, if they had died and he had been too far away to save them, to hold them.

Of course, whenever Kagura gets curious enough and asks him what he thinks about when he’s lying around without a copy of Shounen Jump at hand, or dreams about whenever he’s asleep, he tells her that he doesn’t think of anything much, or dream of anything at all.

She doesn’t have to know.

None of them do.